FREDRIK SCHEIKE

Då jag inte är enbart är en nörd som pluggar filosofi och andra konstigheter, läser jag ibland andra saker som inte är Sartre också. Jag satte faktiskt tänderna (all puns intended) i den klassiska "Dracula" direkt efteråt, och hoppar mellan tre fyra böcker samtidigt. Fack- och skönlitteratur samt poesi. Allt i en salig blandning. Ett hopp ifrån Bram Stoker tog mig till Petter Stordalens "Äntligen vardag", eller för att parafrasera, "Hur jag slutade oroa mig om klassamhället och blev platoniskt förälskad i en miljardär."

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(Kodak 200, shot with my Canon F1, soon on my IG. )

"i tusen år."

I guess I have a very disparate mind. I can get ideas, start writing, get to thinking and just go on in that moment, but later when I come back to something it's incredibly hard to get back into that same mindset that put those words on paper/on screen in the first place. I'm not a writer, that's for sure, I enjoy when I can take my time and actually do it but I don't consider myself any type of writer. Mainly because I'm not pursuing it and also because I don't make it into the habit I wish it could be. I want to develop and I believe that at least in my poetry I've found something that I could classify as my style or my voice. Everchanging, bu with a typical stamp. I wish I had the consistency, because that's a huge part of it, the persistence and the know-how to pick up where I left off. To stick with an idea or a thought train and latch on to whatever made it appear in the first place. Maybe, it's just as easy as pushing yourself and practice...

Recently I've been thinking a lot about what talent means, where confidence comes from, what success means and how we constantly define ourselves in the reflection of the people around us. You know, the smaller things in life. I recently had a run-in with a person who for me would classify as a hack, a person who has it's moments but for the most time rarely does anything out of the extraordinary, but who has all the confidence in the world. How is this possible and who do I call to get a dose of the same? A lot of people through the years have seen me as confident, almost to the point of being cocky and arrogant, and people in general have not been shy in voicing their opinions about my way of being or acting, no pun intended. I'm either full of myself, an asshole or any other beautifully phrased derogatory term. Not that I take offense or even take note, if people are bothered maybe, just maybe it's really them who struggle with something big, not me. But...