FREDRIK SCHEIKE

Vârtecken! / Signs of spring / Signes de printemps "You need a bit of Sweden..?" | Colourtime! Mickaël decided to help me - reluctantly! How will it turn out...? | I'm not sick in the shower - it's the colour going away Before | After [Due to the lighting you can't see much difference but trust me - it's there..] So right now I've heard people saying: "You're not SWEDISH anymore!" "I thought you were goodlooking before.." "Take that away, you're buttugly" "It's a change anyway." "The more I look at you, the more it seems okay.." "That looks good on you..!" "Now you've got the sunglasses, the haircolour - all you need is the fake-tan to be french!" Loads of love from the 'mansion'! Bisous Fredrik

Hey everyone and no one! Since I don't know how many you are I'm signing an excuse for everyone who follows and doesn't follow this blog! Sorry for being a lazy-ass and not posting - not answering - nothing.. I guess it happens! @skie: Salut mec! Oui, oui, j'ai la frite! Toi aussi j'éspere? Sure thing - have just been talking to my hostfamily about it and they're A-okay so I'll call you tonight for a little one on one? Whaddayasay? I'll give you a ring tonight- promise! Puss och kram - kexchoklad(?)..! @Ruub: Okej, vi pratade nyss men vaffan! Jag ska svara iaf! Jag kollar upp Beastieboys och det ska inte vara nâ probs att boka (46,20€ stycket)! Ring mig nästa lördag sâ fâr jag höra vad som bestämts och hur mânga som kommer! @anonyme/Delphine(?): Haha yup, probably.. But hey, it's not everyone who's bad influence right? I have to be proud of somethings..! @Allman: Jajjemums, det är bara att lägga ihop allt... Jag blev väl inte sâ förvânad att jag ...

FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! I don't know what to do - I'm so fucking confused. I want to swear in a language so vulgar you never knew it existed, I want to cry until there're no more tears, I want to scream my lungs out, I want to run 'til I hit the ground, I want to hide and never be found, I want to destroy everything and everyone, I want to give up, I want to quit - I want out. I can't STAND this shit no more! I just fucking can't ! WHERE DID IT ALL GO SO WRONG!? Stupid, stupid, STUPID, just.. FUCK!!! It all goes back to me anyway - so why don't I do something about it anyway. The sins are too hard for a full man to beat - but I'm not even a man. Not a full grown nor even half.. This time it's not even funny anymore. I'm going to walk out on myself. Putain, je suis encore une être humaine. (Everything written in this inlay is directed only to me, the 'fuck-you's' and everything, no one else. )

Rules *Total the number of things in each list you’ve done. * No need to say which ones. *If people really want to know they will grow the balls to ask. If you go over 45, you’re a bad influence. If you go under 15, chances are you live under a rock and have no life... even more harsh. 1. Smoked 2. Consumed alcohol 3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex 4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex 5. Kissed someone of the same sex 6. Had sex 7. Had someone in your room other than family 8. Watched porn 9. Bought porn 10. Done drugs TOTAL: 8 1. Taken painkillers 2. Taken someone else’s prescription medicine 3. Lied to your parents. 4. Lied to a friend. 5. Snuck out of the house. 6. Done something illegal. 7. Cut yourself. 8. Hurt someone. 9. Wished someone to die. 10. Seen someone die. TOTAL: 6 1. Missed curfew 2. Stayed out all night. 3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. 4. Been to a therapist. 5. Been to rehab. 6. Dyed your hair. 7. Received a ticket...

GAAAAAAAAAAH! Happiness! I don't know why but all of a sudden I'm just walking around with this really naïve and dumb expression on my face. Why? I can't really answer.. Yesterday I went out searching for a pair of sunglasses in the burning afternoon sun - I didn't find no sunglasses at first but I found Pauline - and suddenly realised I'd recieved 3 messages. Haha, how one turns blind before the light of happiness! I guess it's the weather anyway. I mean come on, three to four degrees in the morning and almost up to 20 degrees during midday! Anyway, I found Pauline and we decided to go get some icecream. She helped me in my search too.. We bought some icecream and a bottle of icetea and went to the park where we sat down just enjoying the sun and laughing at all the people - planning for saturday evening when we're going to drop the PARTYbomb..! Today! Almost the same thing, without Pauline, without icecream or icetea but the weather!! I made shorts out of ...

There are times when you find yourself doubting, you find yourself questioning yourself - is it all really worth it? What is the greater good for which I continue to fight along? There are times when you find yourself thinking, how fucking dumb can a man get to throw himself in to this kind thing by his own will? How selfdestructive and demolishing mush one be? There are times when you find yourself with all the troubles of the world on your shoulders, when everything is against you and you find yourself struggling against everything with nothing. There are times when you find yourself the happiest of them all and no one can take you down. No matter what they say - life is good, you've got friends and family and the sun is shining. This day, is nothing at all like the one described just above. A little bit, it's for sure, but not completely and entirely. I began the day with rising between 6:50 and 7:00 with thoughts saying - this is going to be a cool day, this is going ...