FREDRIK SCHEIKE

So, one of the major things in Spain in this moment are the upcoming presidential elections, on the 20th of December, and what kind of "blogger" would I be if I didn't have my two cents about absolutely everything? Not to diminish neither my own opinion, my right to express it or the importance of politics of course. As I don't have my voting card and I'm not sure how I would go about acquiring one should I be allowed to have one, the best way to participate in these elections is to inform myself of the various options that are out there. On one side of the scale you have a bunch of smaller left wing parties, syndicalists, communists, workers unions and the united left. We move further on the scale and we find bigger parties like the sensation Podemos and the older social democrat PSOE. Moving right along, the scale tips towards the blue PP, the even more extreme right Ciudadanos and out towards the brown, and darker, parties. It's a really dauntingl...

I think this thing of the lists, which BuzzFeed in America, Newsner/Aftonbladet in Sweden and a bunch of other sites have grown crazy big on is something that we've grown so accustomed to in today's world of internet that we barely react anymore. It's anything from the "10 things puppies would be if they were foods" to celebrity bullshit to beautiful, unknown places for you to travel to when you trek the world. But I came across one today, one that I actually don't mind sharing due to the realness of what it said; "15 things you can do when you feel like shit." The pursuit and the constant need to feel happy, the stress to not let anything get to you in today's society is killing us slowly. If we're not allowed to feel bad, then how can we contrast that to when we feel good? How can we have one without the other? With a completely blissfully happy world, we're incredible close to getting into the happy dystopia-land of Aldous Huxley...

I felt the infinite wind, killing me with every gust and gale, the torment of a million spikes, ripping at my every inch   at my very being. As I stood there, Facing my eternity, the pieces fell together, I in unison; discarded rosepetals I peddle for pocket change,    I wish you knew me before. the wind grows stronger, but we have to stand tall, an avenue is an avenue because someone named it so, when my mind is gone,     my flesh remains. I fear because I've felt, and now I feel because I've feared. We must wrap humanity in gauze, she's bled for too long. it's all we've ever felt, this infinite wind. Fredrik Scheike, 20/11/2015

och jag smakade livets sötma   läppjade bägaren med vetskapen om till vilken grad jag skulle bli beroende sockersöta toppar och dalar    det jag inte visste var var vi var på väg. inget säkert avstånd och allt eller inget, på ett nummer      på miljonen det är det vackra med oss, att tärningen försätts i snurr, långt efter vinstnumret dragits kombination av självironi och distans,     med ett rejält mått egoism för alla vill väl lyssna på mig. det finns inget eller, eller hellre alltid både och, allt OCH inget, bättre än Palle Kuling vid fem års ålder är läxan som smakar bittert    men lämnar dig med sötmans ångor av med hatten! bocka och buga livet mästrar och lär     särskilt när vi öppnar oss   ...

Puh. Yesterday was a tough day to be honest. I started the morning learning about the horrible things that had happened in Paris just the night before and my social media feeds were all going bonkers. And no wonder, such an inhumane and cruel attack rightfully should cause a stir. But more on that later. I then, when I was finally alone in the house decided to do my meditation, before going in to put rehearsal. Yesterday's meditation was a fascinating one where I ended up "confusing" or rephrasing the centering thought. The original one read, "I release myself from obstacles and boundaries " but I ended up with "I release myself from restrictions and limitations" similar, but not the same. The meditation itself was okay, I couldn't really relax on the cold stone floor, but the centering thought that I constructed stayed with me for the remainder of the day. Later in rehearsal, things went to shit for me. I didn't feel true or alive in any ...

This is the second bundle of the week, and of the blog in general. And this time because all of the meditations up until today have been really, really powerful in terms of how they've left me. Especially powerful was days 8-10 where the focus has shifted, on how to turn beliefs into actions, and how to make a cohesent set of core beliefs available to you. What are these beliefs that everyone should carry with them, which everybody should build their persona upon? I'm loving and loveable I'm worthy I'm safe and trusting I'm fulfilled and whole Which sounds like it might be a piece of cake, and it should be. But life comes in between, and experiences filter themselves into what you build your identity upon. They, unfortunately, manifest themselves deeper than we might think, and we can often feel tempted to add a "but" or an "or" to what should be our core beliefs. "I'm loveable but I don't deserve to be loved" is an exa...