7/12 - Thirteen days, thirteen ghosts.

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Victor: Inga problem. Har det hänt saker sâ förstâr jag att du inte har tid att sitta och läsa hemsidor med text varje dag :) Ja, du fâr se till att förbereda dig mentalt för jag vill ha MYCKET info..!

Yeah it's probably a crappy movie, but the title really went well with the rest.

I have no idea of nothing to be frankly, what I want, what's coming for me and what it's all about. It's time to start using that thing they call brain to sort some things out I believe. I'll never manage this - never. It wasn't supposed be easy, surely, but it wasn't going to kill me either.

This stress, this pressure and this frigging indecision - the constant tiredness and the constant feeling that something's not quite right.

This is MY year, it was ME who decided to go here - yes, I expected cultural-encounters, solvable and solvable by arguing for my sake. Yes, I accepted to go here on your terms, but you have to understand that this I thought the commitment was mutual.

OF COURSE I was going to ask to stay out late, OF COURSE I would ask to go away sometimes, and OF COURSE I could not work all the time.

I have no idea how the others were, most probably they weren't the same - seeing how you react to things I say. But for the love of all gods, accept me for how I am. Yes yes, I have the right to go out at nights, I have the right to go away this weekend, but everytime you say yes I get the feeling you're disappointed at me - and it makes me sick. Guilttripping me everytime, and I swear you know it too.

But hell, I'm happy anyway.. I got 2 families (well, even more really), I got friends both waiting and waving, I got a lot of things to be happy about with christmas closing in and all.

Still, I can't seem to fight this rising feeling of helplessness and gods know what. Well, I'll sort that out all later. Right now, I have more important matters at hand - philosophy and the litterature from hell - which I probably don't have to do but I'll give it a try anyway..

Just leave me alone,
let me lie in.

Signing with a sigh and hopes of a lighter tomorrow!

Love from the Library!

Bisous

Fredrik

Booklist so far:

English:
A game of Thrones - George RR. Martin

Swedish:
Tärningsspelaren - Luke Rhinehart
Jag skulle vilja att nâgon väntade pâ mig nâgonstans - Anna Gavalda

French:
Tome 1-3 (spanning 15 volumes) of Battle Royale - Koshun Takami

In progress:

English:
The Da-Vinci Code - Dan Brown
The Caves of Périgord - Martin Walker

French:
Contes - Charles Perrault

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