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My Declaration of Love for LA.

Ah this, wonderful, open, hated, small, hot, trashy, awesome, claustrophobic, smelly, huge, often spat-upon, glamorous city. This miracle of a monstrosity of duality. This riddle that is Los Angeles. How I hated you at first - I have to admit. When I came here for the first time in 2009 together with my good friend V and our traveling P.I.C.'s A & J I thought this was the suburb to hell on earth (which for your information is Las Vegas). I hated the fact that the differences between people were so clear, that you had, not two-three classes in society, but 6 or 7. I hated the fact that it was dirty, smelly, gritty, unsafe and completely segregated - because let's be honest it is. It was the first time in my life where I had actually seen someone using hard drugs, and I saw it in the streets. Someone was shooting up, right in front of me, in the middle of the day. Me and my good friend walked down one block headed for the fashion district, we quickly regretted it and...

Music's What Makes Your Heart Sing

What an eventful couple of days it has been. As always, to be honest. It feels like I'm constantly having twentyfivemilliontwohundredandfortysevenpointsix things to do. I don't like to make list, but I do. And they help! They sort stuff out for you, and helps you find what is most important during a day. The ABC-system which is something I got taught at a seminar actually helps. And that energy that enforces you once you've completed a task on the list is magical. It's uplifting and even if it's just one item of the aforementioned number of things, it's still empowering. I have been slacking on the ABC-system lately, which is why I feel like a lot of things are crashing right now. Well, to be frank, they're actually not. A lot of things are actually going my way, in a very good way. I've found a school to apply for here in Los Angeles in fall that permits me to stay, but also to take care of the apartment during winter time which is something th...

Audition Diary: "IRS Jeff"

Date: 5/29/2013 What: "IRS Jeff" web-based short film. Where: TCD Studios Who: Christina What felt good: The comedic timing was good and so was the connection with the reader, as always when I'm reading with Christina. Had a good understanding of the text. What could improve: Much, honestly. It's one of those really rare auditions, and a day where I was not even remotely close to acting. I had prepared for one part but when I arrived at the studio, they told me that that part had already been cast and that I was actually auditioning for the other part. Huge miss on my end! Stumbled the lines, asked to take it over twenty times instead of staying with the character and didn't feel anything at all. I just didn't take it seriously. Stay in character. Love what you do. READ THE PART YOU'RE AUDITIONING FOR. Every audition is important, so are the stakes. If you can't feel the audition you're better off NOT doing it and doing yoursel...

3x Audition Diary: "Dueling Honeytrappers", "Spiders", "Disdain"

Date: 5/22/2013 What: Dueling Honeytrappers, web-based short film Where: TCD Studios Who: Christina What felt good: As the role in itself, is a very sultry and sexy role with a lot of charm to score on top of that, I felt good, confident and sexy when I walked into the room. I really hope that transferred to the camera. I made distinct choices and walked the border between sex and lust and hate and despair. I used some tactics out of both corners of the emotional boxing ring. What could improve: A better hair day, honestly. Date: 5/22/2013 What: Spiders, web-based short film Where: TCD Studios Who: Christina What felt good: Aaaaaaaah, comedy! Diving right into a silly, unmanly, not-so-witty character full of life, humor, love and goofiness. It felt good to do comedy in an audition as that's one of the areas that I want to develop more, but also feel like I've developed a lot more recently. What could improve: Braver physicality, and again, a better hair day,...

Random Access Memories

Whaaa! It's the 21st! And almost every electronic music fan in the world knows what that means, at least they should. Today's date marks the release of one of the most anticipated albums in since 2007 when the group last released an album. They're pioneers in many aspects and have literally defined an entire country's electronic sound. So when the viral marketing and the rumors we've been victims of for the past 5 months actually turned out to be true, everyone from Granddad to lil' Timmy's been shitting bricks and holding their breaths. Cleverly they also released the "Creators Series - Collaborators" in partnership with HUGE companies, so music buffs like myself could wet myself even more over the many geniuses they've brought in to collaborate with. "What the HECK is this album he's talking about?" you're asking yourself.

We All Have Our Limits

I'm watching you, Watching me. You have no clue, What I see. A perfect reflection, Of an intricate conception, Of unearthly, Unwordly, Unspoken truth. Your image frozen, A wish for what you wish you for, Since your imagination, Is restricted, constricted, By the same force that moulds, And molds you. Your unlife, Is your undoing. You're stagnant, soon repugnant, The whole world witnesses, Your downfall in disgust, Your empire turned dust, You must, Have realized by now, how, You and yours, Forever crushed. I'm watching you, Watching me, How blind we must seem, My mirror me, and I.

Audition Diary - "Reminiscence"

When: 5/10/2013 What: Reminiscence, short film. Where: Space Station Casting Studio, 950 N. Cahuenga Blvd. Who: Gabriel. What felt good: I had memorized the few lines I had and felt really grounded in the performance. I saw and felt the environment, I felt the connection with the reader who responded very well and I believe I handled the adjustment very well. The simplest line in the script was said with gusto, because there was so much emotion behind it. Might have been an easy line to overlook, but I believe I nailed it. Gabriel was happy with it. What I could improve: Take time to print your own sides *hrrrrm* and go deeper into the duality of passion. Think what this casting comes down to is looks - who the reader (who I believe is also the lead role) is most attracted to!

Audition Diary - "The Dentist"

Date: 5/7/2013 What: The Dentist, short film Where: Cap, Ventura Blvd. Who: John Altobello What felt good: Uhm, this should probably go under "non-audition diary". I got stuck in traffic for 2,5hours with no arrival in the near future before I decided that I would not show up more than 2 hours late. I tried everything to get a hold of the guy, without success, so I guess now I look unprofessional. Hey, I tried! What could improve: Since the new reconstruction of the 405 is causing the entering lane from Santa Monica Boulevard and the exiting lane to Wilshire Boulevard to be the same lane, traffic is terrible. It's packed and I kid you not I went 2,4 miles in 2,5 hours. AVOID THE 405 NORTHBOUND FROM 3-6. Don't be a stranger! Loves

I'm Not Giving Up, I'm Just Giving In

I'm weak, what can I say? I need my sleep. Crashing at 3:30AM is unusual for me. What was even more unusual was that I saw one of my neighbors going upstairs at 2:50AM. DAAAMN that's a long day at work. I dug up the email addresses of a couple of the Rotary people and decided to try my luck there. It's the first time I'm able to locate the addresses, and believe you me, I've been looking. What's weird now though is that I can't find a single one of the phone numbers I located the other day. Thought I'd slice two hams with one knife, but no siree. I did however write the secretary, the former governor, the new governor and the governor elect - hopefully someone's sitting on all the answers. Now, not only am I falling asleep, but so are my legs who are absolutely beat after all the driving today. Back and forth to Burbank with HEAVY traffic on the way up, which means a lot of fast breaking and going, and then back and forth to improv, whic...

Caught Up In the Middle of the Dead of Night

Yes indeed. Time here is around 2:40AM and yours truly is up and about, writing and trying to stay awake.. Why, you ask? Very good question with a very simple answer. I'm expecting a call from Sweden, and if I don't get it, I'm not going to be a happy camper. I called up Rotary International and their office (or so I thought) in Uppsala. Turns out the woman picking up the phone is a hostess of the restaurant where all the local chapters come and eat and congregate. Oh, bummer. But she was very friendly and nice and listened to me, she herself even proposed taking down a message for the Uppsala chapter regarding my application for a scholarship through them in order to study here. First things first, I reaaaally hope they call me tonight, because otherwise it feels like a waste staying up way past my bedtime. Second, I reaaaaaally hope I'm able to apply and get a scholarship. Especially since N is planning on moving here too. That maximum scholarship would literally ...

Heavy Rains

Usually when I go to bed in this part of the world I hear crickets, a distant helicopter or siren, traffic, birds or the occasional drunk/hobo. Not rain. It's literally pouring down outside. And, I love it! We've had brushfires and pretty extreme drought over the past couple of weeks and months, so Mother Nature decided to take care of it herself. We needed the rain, and badly. The grass on the lawn where we were shooting on Saturday was yellow and brown and crunched when I stepped on it. I believe I'm one of the few who actually loves rain. The sounds from it, the feel of it and of course the effects of it. It's a very cleansing feeling - like nature in itself is trying to wash away all that is bad in the world. It's like a release and a relief - and after the rain the smell and feel of the air is as if nature is sighing with a near orgasmic calm. I've taken loooong walks by myself a lot of times in the rain - some of my friends, especially from my time in N...

Indecision

My daily chores as an actor are today not what they should be. I don't feel like sitting and going through 231 emails, even though I know it'll go quick. I don't feel like applying for jobs, reading or doing anything. My laziness or escapist brain makes me want to flee work because it feels too overwhelming right now. I don't know what I want to do instead though, that's also a problem. Hey Mr. Indecisive man! It's like I'm bored - or hyper - or bored because I'm hyper. I don't want to start watching a movie, or a series, I don't want to go out for a run, I don't want to create music - I could maybe drive somewhere and enjoy the beauty of nature and meditate. Maybe that's what I'll do. Remove the stress a bit. I'm guessing that the double espresso - no matter how good it was - today kicked my ass down the wrong path. Not the path of energy through joy or anger, but boredom through indecisiveness and a feeling of blandness. It...

Audition Diaries - "The Kindness List + Weight Management"

Date: 5/6/2013 What: Web-based content. Where: TCD Studios Who: Mike & Christina What felt good: Good connection with the auditor. Felt good about my choices and got to read for a second film that I was not originally called in for. Got direction and took it in. Auditor happy with adjustment. Was confident all the way through. Improvements: Could probably make stronger, bolder, choices. Felt good about the established relationship. Humor was present but the struggle was not too evident. Don't be a stranger! Loves

Movie Diary, Iron Man 3

Went to see Iron Man 3 . Produced by: Victoria Alonso, Stephen Broussard, Louis D'Esposito, Jon Favreau. Directed by: Shane Black Cast by: Sarah Finn (working currently on Guardians of the Galaxy (2014), The Little Prince, Godzilla (2014), Captain America 2 (Filming)) Follow up to Iron Man and Iron Man 2 about eccentric billionaire playboy Tony Stark played by Robert Downey Jr. based on a Marvel character. Initial thoughts about movie: A lot of CGI and extreme closeups of actors faces. A lot of scenes inside the "Iron Man"-suit really close to Robert Downey Jr, Gwyneth Paltrow and Don Cheadle. What stood out to me was the lack of real emotion throughout the movie. It was predictable and left me with a feeling of "meh". A movie I know I have to have see during 2013, because everyone will talk about it, but it's not top ranking in my book. Ben Kingsley's acting was phenomenal. 4/10 total Don't be a stranger! Loves

Audition Diary, "Music Video - Tijuana Panthers"

Date: 5/5/2013 What: Music Video for Tijuana Panthers. Where: USC Who: Met Carlton, Ninh and (Asian guy loving Sweden) What felt good: Great connection with all three auditors. Full of confidence both walking into and well inside the room. Ran the improv three times and could feel it all of the times. Saw what I was doing and lived the reality of it. Got direction in between every new time I did it and they ended up laughing so hard the last time. Got told that I'm perfect for two parts and got asked about my availability. Improvements: Remember everyone's name. Don't be a stranger! Loves

Feeling in Spring

Wow, what a long time it has been. Last time I published something here was back in December. Yeah, of 2012, but still. It's more than 5 months ago. Which also means that time has been FLYING by. I honestly still feel like I still just moved to Los Angeles. August seems so close, both the past and the coming and I don't know how time can be that relative. But it is. And here I am, in May of 2013, writing again. Maybe I should do a video blog? I mean, that's befitting an actor, no? Bleh, I'd rather keep to writing for now, and I will keep this up, for I feel it gives me more liberty and creative space. Weird, I know! Anyhow, there's a lot of reason's for picking up the "good ol' blog" again. After having busted my ass off on Thursday, replying to over 40 emails, which around 80% were LONG and very PERSONAL, I realized that I could compile a lot of information for a lot of people by going back to the blog. I need to write more. It "u...